Selamat menyambur Maulidur Rasul
My BF journey for 2nd caliph..
As I mentioned in my previous post, I only manage to bf umar for 1 month. This due to few reasons;
1. Distance -umar went back to malaysia earlier than me
2. Lack of knowledge
3. Stress as I had my final year 3 exam 2 weeks after umar's birth thus my milk production reduces tremendously. I put very few effort on boosting the milk production..sigh~
4. I had very bad cracked nipples and breast engorgement again due to poor knowledge and support
But now, with Thariq Ziyad is my golden oppurtunity to start Breastfeeding again! I have this long holiday since before labor so I had enormous time to read and gather information on bf in addition to what I've learned in my O&G and peads posting. This is to prepare for the challenging time to come in my bf journey especially during confinement e.g. bought breast pump, how to prevent cracked nipples, how to deal with breast engorgement, how to boost milk production, how to store EBM etc.

However no matter how prepared I am, there are still challenges in the process. I had cracked nipples again but alhamdulillah it was not as bad as previously. I applied some breast milk on the cracked area, let it dry instead of 'keeping' it inside the bra. The easiest thing is to be topless (at the right place ok:) )
The cracked is quite deep so it takes time to heal. While healing I still bf Thariq directly on this breast. So what I did was feeding Thariq using different position e.g. From craddle hold to football position so that I can avoid the wound. It still painful but less coz baby hard palate not touching the cracked area. Every time I will pray to Allah to heal the cracked area. Alhamdulillah so far it works for me.
I already starts pumping for EBM stock for my working and oncall days. But still could not pump from the cracked breast coz need to allow some times for it to heal. So the milk stock not as much as expected but I'll keep working for a better amount...:) Alhamdulillah..
It is a challenged to be firm on my stand to bf as some relatives suggest to give formula. The rational why I want to bf besides the health benefit etc, is I want to have exclusive time with my baby when I start working. By hook or by crook I need to bf him even I am tired back from work. So I will have 'special' time with him. And for umar I will find time to be with him too. I know this is the best gift for my kids..Pray for me please..
hulagu khan (review novel sejarah islam)

Saya amat gemar membaca buku yang menaikkan semangat dan motivasi. Dalam hati saya menanam keazaman dan berdoa agar anak-anak saya menjadi insan yang menyumbang kepada kebangkitan Islam.
Sebetulnya saya baru menghabiskan novel sejarah Islam di atas. Sangat menarik dan memberi gambaran yang lebih jelas tentang sejarah Islam pada Zaman Abassiyah (red circle pd graf dibawah).. (drp "Ini Sejarah Kita") boleh download di sini
Kini saya lebih faham tentang kejadian yang terjadi pada waktu yang dibulatkan merah di atas..sewaktu Islam berada di kemuncak di zaman kegemilangan. Tapi kini di mana kita?? kita sudah berada di bawah takat beku semula (green circle) iaitu sama seperti pada zaman permulaan iaitu zaman jahiliyyah (blue circle)..kalau xpercaya..kenapa makin banyak kes buang bayi? ini satu contoh saja belum yang lain2 lagi. dalam sebulan lebih 4 kes yang dihebahkan..berapa banyak yang xdihebahkan?? saya bekerja dihospital memang banyak kes yang xdihebahkan dan kes sumbang tetapi tidak mengandung..sedih.. saya sangat sedih membaca perkara2 begini..
marilah kita sama2 menaikkan semula Islam dan mencapai zaman kegemilangan yang pernah menjadi milik kita dahulu....bagaimana? Ini tidak dapat dicapai dengan sekelip mata tetapi memerlukan kesungguhan dan masa..ia tidak dapat dicapai berseorangan tetapi perlukan kumpulan sokongan..
pertama perbaiki diri kita kerana individu akan membentuk keluarga. Komponen keluarga akan membentuk masyarakat. Masyarakat akan membentuk negara dan seterusnya. sehinggalah kita berjaya mendapatkan khalifah islam itu semula. Kita kene mula dari sekarang..saat ini..demi masa depan anak-anak dan Islam itu sendiri.
Wallahualam.,
p/s: next in line, novel sejarah islam : Thariq Ziyad, menang atau syahid..:)

Alhamdulillah - grand prize!;)

Alhamdulillah I won the grand prize for the "help-me-to-grow-1Superkids" contest..visit here
I won the prize with total amount of about RM 300++..alhamdulillah..joining the
online group with lots of information like 1superkids is an opportunity to get lots of beneficial information for free, have more friends in blogging world and win prizes for contest like this.
my entry for the contest visit: here
Alhamdulillah..thank you 1superkid admin for the nomination!
mother's monologue
This post was save in my draft for quite sometimes. As I remembered this was written when i read a post in another blog about a mom in doubt on her ability to be a good mother to her child.
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There's no such thing as good or bad mom. As long as we do our best for our kids, we are the best mom for our own children.
Never tend to be like someone else because our situation and theirs are different. Each of our kids' character also is different from each other. Further more our kids and other kids from different upbringing environment.
Appreciate everything that we have in hand and never complaint. For example, if we have only 2 solid hours to spend with our kids, utilise that golden moments fully. Never compare our life with others. The outcome of everything we do is in Allah's power. Even if we spend everything we have for our kids but if Allah wants a different path and destination for us we will be in His path, always have strong faith that Allah knows what is best for us.
Reading with Umar:)
I have not doing much activities with Umar for quite sometimes..we usually only read a page per day or maybe a page in two days. The rest, Umar will read by himself as he always loves reading. When he reads alone I'll listen to him and there would be many mistakes but I just let him continue reading for not to discourage him..He must be wanting so much a new book to explore!
He demanded for more arts activities. I only managed to do simple paintings and some 'kolaj' with ayah's help on my first day of confinement.
As for Umar's learning to read the Furqan, he already proceed with his 3rd book. He says that it is quite hard for him to master it but he will try to read at least half a page per day..he also forgotten some of the 'baris bawah' because of long break due to my health status..
Here is Umar's video reading last night:
cloth diaper
This is my first time using cloth diaper and I strongly recommend it for our kids. Why?
1.hygienic- easy to clean and easy to use
2. I can closely observe my son's stool colour to ensure he had enough of the foremilk+hindmilk= mustard colour
3. gentle to baby's skin- no more diaper rash. Both my sons's skin is sensitive to chemical e.g. powder, diaper etc. With cloth diaper alhamdulillah no more rash but of course both CD and Disposable diapers need frequent changing ok..if baby using wet CD/Disposable diapers for hours he definitely will develop rashes!
Umar had a try wearing CD, he likes it so much!his comment: "lembut la pampers butang ni ummi..cantik warna dia"..;)
4. good for our nature- I had no guilty feeling inside because my bin will not be full of disposable diapers anymore!
5. save $ a lot!- hubby no more need to buy the diaper frequently as these CD can last until thariq is 3 years old..insyaAllah..hubby like it so much..heh
6. cute- i like the various design and the colourful pattern especially on the drying line...
Healthy Emotions
I think this topic is very important for mothers. No matter FTWM or SAHM or WAHM. When we are are emotionally healthy, we have better control of our feeling and behaviour. This is vital for us as a mother especially those shouldered the title of super-working-mom.
Can we imagine, after a very hectic routine at work, came back home with a long list of house chores to settle plus young kids desperately need our attention. This is a common but challenging moment that highly need healthy emotion skills.
Some tips to share:
· Taking care of physical health - when exercise endorphins are released. A hormone that may lift the mood.
· Get adequate nutrients. Simple supplement may help.
· Spend time outdoor everyday even only for 10 minutes.
· Sleep and rest well
· Make time spent alone a meaningful ,productive and enjoyable moment.
Cultivate a good balance between responsibilities and the things we enjoy.
A reader today is a leader for tomorrow
I like to highlight Tun Dr Mahathir's opinion on the important of reading to acquire knowledge in comparison to gaining knowledge through watching tv.
This was from the star date 31st jan 2010:
"Reading is different. It stays in your mind longer. You learn when you read. Not only the knowledge contain in the book but also the language, the way the book is written."
"Of course we can also acquire knowledge through television but we cannot gain an education just by watching television alone.They say picture paints a thousand words. Sometimes when you look at a picture, you see not just one but many thousands of words. However understanding still may not come and so you do not produce."
I think his words in the article explains clearly how acquiring knowledge from reading is the main important way and should be encouraged since young.
So, lets read with our kids!!choose the right material for them! Even Islam's first revelation was "iqra'":)
Reading is a way to release tense too!;)
